I’ve taken somewhat of a sabbatical from blogging the last six months or so. (With the exception of posts for Rhema every now and then because I’m the student blogger.)
Writing everyday was supposed to help me find my voice. And it did a great job of developing my follow through muscles, which were disgracefully atrophied at the time.
I am truly grateful for that sweet season. It was necessary and life-giving and a ton of fun.
At almost 27, though, it seems that the journey to find my voice, my path, has me in the thickest patch of woods right now. All scratched up, running into branches and scary spiderwebs (the kind you don’t see until it’s too late).
And whenever I write, I have this habit of spinning things to show only the rosy side of life. I discovered in one of my classes this year on personality types that this trait is quite common amongst folks with my personality type.
It serves me well 90% of the time. I can’t help but see the good and in this dark world that’s a true gift.
However, when your own path is dim and you can’t find your way, tripping over your own feet, it’s hard to add a positive spin.
Not just hard but exhausting. You feel dishonest and unsure what to do with yourself and words that are rosy but not really true.
So I took some time off. This summer I want to hop back in to more frequent writing.
Still not sure what it will look like but I didn’t know the first time around either!
Thanks for sticking around and understanding. Ready for a new adventure? So am I.
My birthday (and America’s birthday) is almost here!
Hard to believe that my daily blogging commitment is coming to and end.
I will definitely keep up my blogging, but not everyday.
Right now my plan is to blog on Mondays and Fridays. The days are subject to change (the objective is biweekly posts).
This is just my preliminary planning because birthdays have always been mile markers for me.
This upcoming year I really want to become a more focused writer.
Daily blogging was only step one for me. I needed to get in the habit of writing everyday.
Now I want to get better at taking ideas and fully developing them.
I am excited! And I hope you’ll stick around through the next year. It’s going to be fun.
I have a bad habit of setting up unrealistic goals for myself.
There’s nothing wrong with setting goals that stretch you, but be careful to not beat yourself up during the stretching process.
I am working on a writing project that is definitely stretching me!
The project is helping a phD candidate in an electrical engineering program turn his research into a written dissertation.
Reading the material and translating the data takes time–which means that setting realistic goals is important.
I’ve been working on this project less than a week and I’ve already logged in 5 hours.
Setting realistic goals keeps you and your project collaborators on the same page.
There’s also no shame in being honest about your limitations and potential time constraints.
I already know that having this proposal completely finished by Friday (what we agreed upon last Saturday) will not happen.
I am working diligently to get as much done as possible, but I have also communicated this fact to my employer, the student.
What I am learning as I begin this journey is that you can never go wrong in planning and goal setting by telling the truth.
Three awesome things happened today.
1. I picked up a writing project!
This project entails helping a doctorate student in a chemical engineering program put words to his research. Don’t be surprised if I end up writing a post or two about what I’m learning.
2. I watched The Shallows in theaters.
At first, I wasn’t going to because I was afraid the movie would not be all that great.
Now, I’m glad that I did! It was epic and suspenseful and awesome.
The biggest recurring thought as I watched: Wow. Not sure I would be smart enough to outsmart a shark.
3. I saw the COOLEST truck ever in the Dollar Tree parking lot.
A Star Wars truck?!?!
I had a geek out moment…I might have contemplated stealing this truck….
Check out the light saber on the gun rack.
I circled this truck at least 5 times. I’ve never seen anything quite like this and now it has me thinking about making a comic book car.
Well, I’m headed toward bed. It’s been a great day.
I’m amazed at how much information there is in our world in relationship to how little I know.
Does anyone remember the website Stumble Upon?
In thinking about this topic, I did a quick Google search and it turns out they’re still around!
Back in my college days, one of my many procrastination tools was to check out cool new websites via Stumble Upon. It was possible to be on that website for at least an hour…
There are websites that I still enjoy today that I found using Stumble Upon. There’s no way that I could’ve found them on my own, either. Think about the amount of new content that we have access to everyday:
- YouTube videos.
- TV shows
I’m reminded of the words of King Solomon:
But regarding anything beyond this, dear friend, go easy. There’s no end to the publishing of books, and constant study wears you out so you’re no good for anything else. The last and final word is this: Fear God. Do what he tells you.
I think it’s safe to say that there’s no end to the releasing of new content.As one of my English professors put it:
The only thing that makes your writing original is that you wrote it. The various devices of storytelling and poetry have been around way before you were around and will continue way after you’re gone.
This is a topic that keeps me humble and also shows me just how big God is. Imagine what He thinks! He created everything and knows everything and sees everything.
My brain started smoking just by thinking about all of this….
While my goal is to learn as much as I can, it’s safe to say that there will always be a large gap between what I know and how much more there is to know.
Putting things off doesn’t make them easier…
For instance, take this post:
I had wonderful intentions to get it up sooner, but then decided to wait.
My evening took an unplanned turn and here I am at a quarter to midnight writing about procrastination.
I’ve read that it’s good to have 5-10 posts ready in your queue. This is sounds like heaven to me because, much like heaven, I have yet to arrive.
My favorite Christian song right now is “One post at a time, sweet Jesus, that’s all I’m asking from you!”
Daily blogging is fun.
Is it challenging?
Are there days you talk about a lack of planning?
Sometimes I can get stuck in my head…
Trying to sort things out sends me in 10 different directions, each with their own feeling.
Writing stuff down helps me capture what’s going on and shows me what areas need to be covered with prayer.
There are times when what I see is ugly. The truth is right there in its distorted, disfigured form.
As I read through past entries, I notice the moments where my perspective turned out to be wrong, which means everything else–my attitude, feelings, and opinions–were wrong as well.
The good news about perspective is that it can change!
It’s easy for me to spot the shift because my angry scribbles and stratch outs give way to hope-filled words–even if my handwriting is still a jumbled scrawl!
Most of the time I end up finding the right words to express the things I couldn’t bring myself to say before.
There might still be a hint of pain behind the words, but the joy is bigger than the pain.
The idea of someone else reading my journal is a bit frightening to me.
However, I believe that when the time is right it will all make sense to whoever ends up with my mountain of words.
He or she will say, “Yes, this chick struggled, but the struggle always led her closer to God, to seeing things from His perspective.”