The monster I had to fight with every night was rejection.
I was the poster child for good kids everywhere, but something was still missing. The praise of my family and friends never satisfied me–though I wanted their praise to keep coming.
The two people I wanted acceptance from had ditched me a long time ago. That’s who I was trying please.
See, Mom and Dad, I’m worth something. I’m not a mistake. You were wrong about me.
Rejection would growl:
Stay on the ground, Audra. You can’t win this one. No one will ever accept you.
I believed him too.
For a long time, I even let this monster keep me from experiencing God’s love.
It wasn’t until my 20s that I truly surrendered all of my heart to God. He came to me in the most tender way, whispering in my ear that His acceptance and love didn’t have anything to do with where I started from.
Today, during a time of prayer, I was overwhelmed with gratitude while remembering where God found me–in a man-made pit of despair–and how He lovingly pulled me out of it.
And God wants to do the same for you, friend.
Don’t listen to the monsters from your past. They are lying to you! I promise.
The love of God is not far from you. It’s as close as your next breath.
What’s holding you back from truly receiving it?
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