I went to school with a boy who never talked. It’s not that he couldn’t talk because I know that he could (a few times in class he would answer a question). He just didn’t want to talk.
He also never ate lunch.
I sat across from him everyday and watched him do homework as I ate my federally mandated portions. A friend of mine made it her personal mission to get him to talk. It never worked. He did, though, laugh at her jokes. She was quite funny.
I asked him to sign my yearbook and, to my surprise, he did!
“I shall maintain my silence.”
That’s all he wrote.
Everything about him was a mystery to me.
He was a genius who won a full paid ride to college….
He was an artist who wouldn’t participate in the senior art show….
He didn’t even come to graduation….
So many things to not know.
My biggest question is why.
Why was he hiding?
When you boil his actions down, that’s all he was doing.
He was full of potential; He had no reason to hide.
I have to ask myself the same question too.
Why am I hiding?
We all need to answer this question.
Why do we hide our dreams?
Why do we play it safe?
Why do we stay small?
I always wanted to ask that boy why, but I never wanted to ask myself.
And that’s because the answers reveal the fears I never wanted to face.
I used to be a fugitive, running away from my own life….
I’m tired of hiding.
I am answering the questions–even when it’s painful–and slowly finding my way.
What about you?
It’s time to stop hiding, to stop living a fugitive’s life.
Answer the hard questions.
Stop running and start living.